tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70804641248872897682024-02-20T14:26:19.112-06:00Can't Rush a Miraclebtayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.comBlogger67125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-5035582922969089832012-04-17T13:33:00.000-05:002012-04-17T13:33:47.163-05:00Update from WTFAs usual, I'm about a week late on updating, but here it is. We met with our RE last Tuesday to discuss what might of went wrong. The answer was nothing. Everything in our cycle went just as it should and our embryos looked great at transfer. He basically told us we are one of the couples with bad luck. He did say he is extremely optimistic about our chances with our two frozen embryos those. He said they look great and he said if the embryo's make it through the thaw (which 98% of them do) he thinks our odds of success will be even higher on the FET than they were on the fresh cycle. So we are hoping to have the money in place to do our FET sometime in June.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-68794349771821181362012-04-01T21:38:00.000-05:002012-04-01T21:38:36.203-05:00IVF #1 was a BFNI knew on Monday when I took an HPT before my first beta and the test was stark white. My RE wouldn't confirm it until my second beta on Wed. came back at 1.5. It needs to be 5 to be considered positive. DH and I are both heartbroken, we had such high hopes for this cycle. We have our WTF appt. on April 10th, and then we will be taking a bit of time off. I'm guessing we will do a FET to transfer our only two snow babies some time late spring or early summer. If that does not work, we are shifting from IF treatments to talking to adoption attorneys.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-55363678666435041622012-03-20T14:44:00.000-05:002012-03-20T14:44:17.047-05:00I'm a bad blogger, but we have embryosWe transferred two beautiful embryos on Friday. Once was an 8 cell and one was a 9 cell. My RE puts our odds at about 60% right now so I'm trying to find the balance between hopeful and realistic. Beta is Wed of next week.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-41729413290301577152012-03-13T15:29:00.000-05:002012-03-13T15:29:22.305-05:00We got 18 eggsIt went as well as it could possibly go today. The only trouble was trying to get an IV into my dehydrated self. It took two pokes but they pulled it off. The RE said to plan on transfer on Friday, but it could get bumped to Sunday if things are going well.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-82667302810603681982012-03-11T10:56:00.000-05:002012-03-11T10:56:53.911-05:00We have a retrieval scheduled I will be triggering tonight for egg retrieval on Tuesday afternoon. At yesterday's monitoring I had 15 follicles measuring over 13mm so hopefully they will all grow nicely before Sunday and give me some fantastic eggs to work with. Going into this process my hope was to get right around 15, so at this point I'm pretty happy with how everything is going. I have had no issues with the shots, but the pills are doing a number on me. I've been nauseous off and on all week, so I'm counting down until I can take the last of the pills. btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-74491489307093973252012-03-04T12:55:00.000-06:002012-03-04T12:55:50.224-06:00The fun has startedI started the stims yesterday, and this morning I'm already dealing with a headache. I think I'm in for a looooong next few weeks. The shots themselves have been no trouble at all, so I'm just crossing my fingers this is just a random headache and not a sign of things to come.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-4264100142975522932012-02-18T23:40:00.001-06:002012-02-18T23:41:04.373-06:00I got my box o'drugs todayI am officially freaked out. I've always seen other girls post the picture with all their meds in it, but it never really hit me until they were on my dining room table how insane it really is. I start shots in less than 2 weeks. Somebody hold me.<br />
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In TTC news, I am 8dpo today. My body seems to be doing everything right this month, except my temps are heading south so it looks like I'll be starting bcps this weekend. My husband's urologist appt. is coming up next week so I will soon know for sure what our plan of action is.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-17724624868615205032011-11-14T09:36:00.000-06:002011-11-14T09:36:34.034-06:00Week 3 of OWLI lost 2 pounds! Total weight loss of 3.5 lbs in 3 weeks. With the amount of cheating I still do I'll take this any day. btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-18737560808685011012011-11-07T10:52:00.000-06:002011-11-07T10:52:03.307-06:00Two Weeks Into Operation Weight LossI'm down a total of about 1.5 pounds. At this rate I am not going to be down the 20 pounds I wanted to before IVF, but any weight loss will help so I'm going to do my best to stick with it. The past two weeks have been tough to fit working out in, but I am going to get back to focusing on that. Hopefully that will speed up the loss a little bit. I'm still drinking Pepsi here and there, but it is definitely more of a treat versus the only liquid I consume. The fact that I survived Halloween and my first CD1 without binging gives me hope that maybe this time I can stick with it.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-69485662123242130232011-10-31T09:04:00.000-05:002011-10-31T09:04:16.049-05:00One week into Operation Weight LossI lost half a pound. I'll be honest, I'm seriously cranky about this. I woke up to pants that were snug, and only a tiny little loss on the scale. The only thing keeping me from a full on rage is that I'm pretty sure that I can blame hormone bloat. I did cheat and have 2 Pepsi's over the weekend so I'll have to try a lot harder this week. Knowing me, if I don't see a little bit better results after this week I'll give up. btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-81224396702683108872011-10-24T11:43:00.000-05:002011-10-24T11:43:00.383-05:00Operation Weight Loss starts todayI recieved an informational video from the IVF clinic last week detailing their success rates among other things. It turns out that if I can manage to lose about 20 lbs before we do IVF our chances go up about 5%. It doesn't seem like a huge jump in odds, but with the amount of money on the line I am going to do everything I can. So Operation Weight Loss (OWL) has officially begun. So here is the plan of action.<br />
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1. I'm giving up Pepsi. It has been my emotional crutch for as long as I can remember, plus it always makes food taste better. I figure if my husband can quit smoking, I can do this but I am already craving one sooo bad.<br />
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2. I'm going to start making a weekly meal plan and following it. I've done meal plans in the past but I always stray when my husband calls me up and says he wants to go out. <br />
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3. I am going to make it a goal to work out a minimum of 3 days a week for half an hour. It isn't much but it is 3 more days than I've been doing so hopefully it makes a difference. I've got a stationary bike and I'm also going to start looking for a good video with some strength/flexibility workouts.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-44246606511593621232011-09-30T16:11:00.000-05:002011-09-30T16:11:35.449-05:00I survived the laparoscopyThe surgery only took a half an hour. They doctor found no physical reason why I have not gotten pregnant, so it was disappointing but luckily my recovery has been really easy. I've had pretty minimal pain. My husband will be talking with a new urologist next week, and then after my post-op appt. I think we will be in search of an IVF center to start IVF sometime next year. We have a few weddings next year that we are in, so we will have to try and work IVF around those. Until then we will just try on our own and hope for the best.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-45773699427915801922011-09-20T13:11:00.000-05:002011-09-20T13:11:42.257-05:00It's been awhileI haven't really had much to update since the last month has just been sitting around waiting for my lap but I am happy to announce that once again, I had a short cycle. I didn't temp so I can't say for sure I ovulated, but my other signs suggest that I did. My LP was still borderline short, but I say close enough! This makes me hopeful that if they find something during the lap and remove it, we will be able to get pregnant without meds. It would be absolutely amazing to be able to get pregnant without having to pump myself full of hormones. If nothing is found during the lap to explain our lack of success, it will be a really tough decision whether we want to try on our own and hope my body continues to cooperate, or go forward with IVF since obviously nothing else we do seems to work. btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-85544496812919726512011-08-26T16:05:00.000-05:002011-08-26T16:05:40.459-05:00laparoscopy is scheduledI met with my RE on Tuesday, and his recommendation was to do a laparoscopy and make sure everything is good to go before we start the process of IVF. So the surgery is scheduled for September 29th and I'm already freaking out. Luckily they got me scheduled for a Thursday so I should only need to take 2 days off of work. I actually am really hoping they find something that will explain our lack of success. If he is able to find something and remove it, we are going to give IUI a few more tries. I'll take IUI over IVF any day. btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-56759732825565461922011-08-20T15:10:00.000-05:002011-08-20T15:10:34.015-05:00Add another BFN to the pileOur last shot at IUI was a negative. I really thought this was going to be it so I'm pretty crushed. As of right now it looks like the plan is to start saving money so we can attempt IVF hopefully in January. Until then I'll just go back to charting and hope something crazy happens. btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-64941897361593569642011-08-09T15:18:00.000-05:002011-08-09T15:18:07.968-05:00My ovary is all giganticI went to my RE this afternoon after having some horrible cramping this morning. After doing an ultrasound he told me that because I had so many follicles this cycle, my ovary is enlarged. He said the follicles that were not mature at trigger have continued to grow. Since there are a lot of them they just sort of ran out of room. He said it is nothing to worry about, but I have to take it easy. No bouncing around for me. If I don't get pregnant it should calm down in the next week. If I do happen to get pregnant, then it is something he will have to monitor, because it can get bigger.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-9859645599109789502011-08-03T15:41:00.001-05:002011-08-03T15:46:26.011-05:00Triggering tonight!After 2 very long days where I was convinced we were cancelling, I am triggering tonight. RE said I have 1 definitely mature, 2 that will catch up, and 8 that he is confident will not catch up. IUIs are scheduled for tomorrow afternoon and Friday morning. I am beyond excited that not only am I triggering, but I don't have to come in on the weekend for an IUI. WooO!!!!btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-6600108980045094852011-07-27T13:43:00.000-05:002011-07-27T13:43:01.453-05:00Not paying for meds after allI got the call yesterday that we are OK to proceed, so I start injects tomorrow. I also made the fabulous discovery that we are not paying out of pocket for meds this cycle. When my husband called the insurance company they had all ready approved all the meds for this cycle. The $200 I handed over was sooo much easier to handle than the $1,000 I was expecting. <br />
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My husband is also still looking into finding a new RE. He found someone he is interested in checking out, so he is going to call him today. I don't think we will be doing any more treatments this year, but we can always meet with him and see if he thinks any additional testing is necessary before we start trying again next year.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-86793079420318983962011-07-26T12:00:00.000-05:002011-07-26T12:00:29.875-05:00Trying againSo we have decided to give the follistim and IUI one more go. We are basically out of meds coverage so we are paying cash for the drugs this time. With my luck this will be the cycle I'm a slow responder. I'm a little nervous about the amount of money we are about to spend knowing that with a total of 4 failed IUIs now that my chances aren't spectacular. I am pretty sure this is going to be it for the year. Unless we win the lottery I just can't see spending any more money on fertility meds. <br />
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I had my baseline ultrasound this morning and there are 4 cysts so I'm currently waiting to hear if the bloodwork comes back clear to proceed or if I'll be spending a few weeks on bcps. <br />
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Oh, my whine of the day. The lady who took my blood this morning sucks. Every other blood draw they have gone to the same vein in my left arm. This lady decided to poke about an inch to the right of it. Surprise! No blood there. So I got a double poke. The only other time I had this lady she couldn't find a vein at all, and she ended up drawing from my hand, which hurts a whole lot more than a little elbow poke.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7080464124887289768.post-24607177232717310602011-07-22T09:10:00.000-05:002011-07-22T09:10:25.499-05:00Another cycle, another BFNNegative HPT at 12 dpo this morning, and of course as soon as I took the test the spotting started. I have to take the progesterone for 2 more days unless full flow starts, but I think it's pretty safe to call this another bust. My husband is going to call our insurance company today to see how much IF meds coverage we have left, and then we are going to discuss next steps. My husband wants to try metformin since he has seen some studies that link it to improved egg quality. I'm back to thinking I want the laparoscopy to rule out endometriosis. My RE has yet to back us up on either of these wishes so who knows what will happen.btayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04345399042623046395noreply@blogger.com1